Tuesday, July 30, 2013

To My Daughter

on becoming a mom…

For nine long months you plan, prepare and panic as thoughts of becoming a mom for the first time swirl around in your head.

You’re terrified and excited all at once. The uncertainties intertwine with expectancies and the complexities of this miracle growing inside of you are overwhelming.

You become increasingly aware and completely in awe of the thought that the God of the universe knew her before He formed her in your womb.

You prepare a nursery with furnishings, hang and fold tiny dresses and little socks and pack your bags for the day that you will finally meet her!

You make your plans but cannot possibly prepare your heart for the unimaginable love you will feel for this tiny precious gift.

A love that grows as she grows until it feels like your heart can’t possibly contain it and then one day she will become a mom and your heart almost bursts!

Momma, mommy, mom…it will be the hardest and most rewarding title you will ever be given.

God will give you grace when you feel like you’re failing.

He will give you patience when you feel like you can’t take anymore.

He will give you wisdom when you have to make unpopular decisions.

He will give you blessings you never thought you deserved.

And He will give you love that you never dreamed possible.



Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Letting Go

At 45 years old I am just beginning to become who God created me to be.

Insecurities and doubts have fallen away and in their place faith has taken root, not because of anything I’ve done but because of what He has done. And as my faith has grown I've learned to let go.

I let go of the plans that I had for myself, the ideas of who I should be and the disappointments of who I wasn’t.

I let go of the past and all that I’ve done and all that I haven’t done.

I let go of the fear of the what if’s and the if only’s.

I let go and I let God have control.

I prayed the prayer, “Not my will Lord, but yours” and meant it.

I stopped trying to figure it all out and stopped trying to make something happen and I prayed, “Move me God, into the position and plan you have for me, whatever that may be.”

I prayed believing that whatever His will was for me would be so much greater than any plans or dreams I had for myself and I believed that whatever happened would be GOD’S plan and that there was always purpose in His plan.

I don’t boast about my own strengths or abilities but about the power of the ONE who created me, the ONE who knew me before He formed me in my mother’s womb and the mighty works that He desires to do through me.

I know that I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.

God’s purpose and plan for our lives include realizing who we are in Christ.

We are more than we ever thought or believed we could be!

We were planned, called, justified and glorified to live according to the purpose God has for us.

We just need to let go and let God do His work in us and through us and leave the outcome to Him.

Romans 8:28-30 (NKJV)
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom He predestined, these He also called; whom He called, these He also justified; and whom He justified, these He also glorified.


Wednesday, July 3, 2013

What I've Learned in the Waiting

So often we want what we want and we want it now! (As I ponder this statement the scene from Willy Wonka with the bratty girl demanding "I WANT IT NOW!!!" plays out in my mind.)

We want things to happen quickly, and usually without much effort.

We want the miraculous and sometimes that’s what we get, but sometimes there is waiting.

Cue the dramatic music.


I know, believe me, I know. Sometimes waiting is difficult, sometimes it’s hurts and sometimes we want to give up.

But it’s in the waiting that we develop strength. We learn what we’re capable of and it’s usually much more than we ever thought was possible.

In the waiting our character is developed, and we become more like the person that we were created to be.

It’s in the waiting that God takes our fears and fills us with hope, faith and determination.

Think of it in these terms; what if the reason God isn’t giving in to our demands and putting us in positions that we WANT RIGHT NOW, is because He hasn’t fully prepared us yet.

What if we’re not finished with the test?

What if we haven’t learned enough to accomplish what He’s prepared for us to do?

Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I’m sure if we were to look back over our lives we would see many times, many signs where God was preparing us for where we are right now.

I hope that the wait isn’t over.

I hope that He is continually preparing me for ALL the plans and promises He has for me.

1 Corinthians 2:9 (NLT)

That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him."

We serve an amazing God who knows exactly what is best for us and His timing is perfect!

I’m thankful for the wait.

I’m thankful for the tests.

I’m thankful that God has me right where He wants me.